the other day i went to the hair salon to FINALLY get my roots done (it had been far too long. but unexpected expenses which seemed more important than vanity kept coming up). while i was there i was reading through an issue of US Weekly, and i couldn't help but wonder how all the "it" girls could handle going out night after night. i am usually tired by 11pm lately on a week night. i can maybe manage to stay up til 1am or so if it's a saturday night. i used to be much more able to go out, and have a good time, and stay out til all hours of the night with friends, whether it was a week day or weekend. i know i'm a little older, but really only by a year and a half. can my energy level have fallen that much in such a short time? that seems quite a slippery slope. i know part of it has to do with the fact that i now have a job that i have to get up for, and attend on a regular basis. not classes that don't start til noon, or that i can skip. but on top of all that, i don't always even have the desire to go out as often. which is too bad. i'm only 24, and i should probably enjoy the time and freedom i have now. soon enough it could be gone. i could get married, and have a family. and by that time it will be too late. i think part of the reason i don't have the desire (aside from getting tired early) is that i may associate the going out with trying to distract myself from my life not being happy. when things are going great with my life, i'm happy and content. i don't need to go out so i don't have to think about it. when things aren't so perfect, suddenly i'm more up for it. but i really don't want to have this bad association with going out. maybe i should try and change that. not that suddenly i want to go out everynight. but more often than before. maybe go out to a bar or club a little more often than i'm used to (which is hardly ever). not cause i want to go and drink a lot. that's not what i mean at all. but just to go out and have a good time like i used to once and a while before i'm in total settle down mode and can't really do it anymore.