Liam

baby development

Monday, September 10, 2007

*sigh*




at least she got her make up done by someone other than herself...

Sunday, September 09, 2007

25

In a few short days it will be my birthday. I will be turning 25. I am half way to fifty. One-quarter of the way to 100. Yikes. With each passing year I find my birthdays harder to deal with. This one, 25, seems even more monumental. Like it is the end of youth. The end of having just myself to worry about. I'm sure this is partly due to the impending marriage. But it just seems so...old, or grown up. I remember growing up and when someone was 25 they seemed so together. So in charge of their lives, and like they had it all figured out. I definitely don't feel that way. I feel more put together than I used to, but I am no where close to feeling like I have it all figured out. If anything, lately, I feel the exact opposite. I feel like I've hit a stagnant spot in my life. Obviously my relationship with The Argentinian is going well, and not at a stand-still. But other than that, I just feel like that I want something more. My job, even though I love the people I work with and think they're great, and enjoy working with them, I just feel like in the position I am in right now, there is no more growth for me. I need to either move up to a different position, or move on to another job. But at the same time, the security of the job that I have is nice. Starting somewhere new, for me, is always so nerve wrecking. Having to get to know the new co-workers, getting comfortable enough, all of that. I tend to be a little shy when getting to know new people, especially in a work type situation. I'm not really sure why. Though I have been trying to make efforts to get over that. But, I digress. I just feel like I need more of a challenge in my daily life. I mean, in reality, I spend more time at work then I do at home (waking hours at least). I want something that excites me. Something I can't wait to go in and tackle. And I don't have that for the job I'm at now. I don't have that passion. Maybe I'm just having a quarter life crisis...