finally some answers

i saw the former boyfriend today. i had to go pick up my things from his house. not something i was looking forward to, but at the same time i was hoping it would provide me with some answers, and i wanted to see him one more time before he left for 2 1/2 months. i am happy to say that i did get some answers. while i wish we were still together, i at least now know what is going on, and understand, and can begin to make my peace with it. i know that we will at least be able to be friends, and who knows, maybe more someday. but i realize at the same time that i can't put my hopes in that cause i could end up getting hurt if i make that assumption. so i guess i'm just going to take a we'll see where we both are when the time comes stance on it. i just kind of wished i had know the real reasons from the beginning, instead of feeling like shit all weekend, and wondering what the hell was wrong with me that this has happened for a second time. so after talking to him i really feel a lot better. perhaps too optimistic about things, but at least it is a step to healing.